ignorance is not an excuse

i get a little mad sometimes, when i see children make huge mistakes and people try to defend them by saying that "they didn't know". maybe because i feel that ignorance should not be used as an excuse all the time; otherwise, they would never learn to take responsibility for their actions.

today, my ignorance made somebody very angry. because i didn't realise that my controller was wired to the wii, i got excited, pulled the wire and made my brother's wii drop to the floor. and the worst part was - one of the covers broke, to my horror.

while he didn't lose his temper as much as i thought he would (thankfully!), i was aware that my ignorance was not an excuse to cover up my mistake. he had every right to be angry, and i have every reason to shoulder the responsibility.

but my point is, if i didn't receive some form of negative reinforcements as a consequence to my actions, i probably wouldn't had learned my lesson (to be more careful) as much as i did.

christmas is a time of giving

so today, i shall give thanks to the people who has made 2008 a year filled with love, joy and warmth for me.



also, thanks to weifang, waiye, aaron, kelvin, threesome, sqdmates, sw honors class, 03a11 and most importantly, God for His blessings and grace.

have a blessed christmas! (:

we are all wolves in sheep skin

once upon a time, there was a group of sheep, who were passionate about making social change and improving the welfare of other sheep.

they believed strongly in engaging the disempowered, advocating for the less privileged, fighting for sheep rights, maximising potential, and everything that seemed to exist only in a utopian dream. so one day, some sheep stepped out, and said, 'let's do something revolutionary that would impact the society'. and other sheep were excited and gave their support. after all, they were already so familiar with political ideals such as bottoms-up approach, transparency, joint decision-making, public consultation etc.

however, in the midst of their campaign, some sheep began to hold on to their power with great relish. "no, the rest of you stay away. we will decide behind closed doors." others began to take shortcuts and make decisions for the disempowered because it was more efficient. but most of the sheep didn't seem to mind just following instructions. it was after all, easier to stay with the herd anyway.

so the moral of the story is, knowing is one thing, and practising is another. and we shouldn't preach too soon, if we are not confident that we can follow through.

i have been busy doing nothing

but when i'm not staring into space or daydreaming, you could catch me:

• stalking a particular korean band on youtube (haha)
• playing bejewel intensely on my phone
• writing my thesis at the rate of one paragraph a day ):
• meeting up with selected few people (yes, i still strive to sustain my social life)
• rewatching snippets of my favourite dramas for the nth number of times
• snoozing underneath the blanklet
• reading the undercover economist (and i still retain my intellectual pursuits too)
• looking at old photographs and reminiscing my adolescent days
• thinking of what i could write for my next update

since this is the last holiday i would ever have before i graduate, i think i deserve to waste it away.

walk, shop and eat!

were the top three things i did in KL, in descending order (:

day 1 - sungei wang, pavillion and our failed attempt at finding the famous bah ku teh



day 2 - one utama - the shopping heaven :D, KLCC and meeting the guys



day 3 - berjaya times square, national museum, jee's seafood and uptown!





day 4 - taupok, jump shots and last chance to photowhore!



ahh, i miss KL!

what i hate about a vacation

is the unpacking and the holiday hangover.

off to a barbecue now! (:

if tomorrow never comes

well, a coach crashed on the malaysian highway this morning.

and having to receive this news less than twelve hours before i set off is definitely going to set my heart on a quiet panic. demostrations, gun rampages, accidents - what is next? somehow i can almost see my life flashing before me.

i had a difficult childhood, but that did not deter me from growing up like anyone else. i did not become deviant. or deliquent. but i did learn to lie to get away with things sometimes, and to please others sometimes. i made friends, some of whom i could connect instantly while others took a while to warm up to. i lost some important people, but i moved on because other people came along and filled up the spaces. i was mediocre in my academic performance, but i would like to believe that i shone in some other ways. even though things did not always turn out to my expectations, i had always worked very hard for what i believed in. and even though i have regrets for things i should have done, i'd like to think that i had always lived to the fullest. and even though i don't always say it, i do love my family and friends very much, before they love and accept me despite my shortcomings.

it seems like God always have plans for us; His intent may only be apparent in retrospect. i pray that his plan for three of us now is to have fun, and come home safely. (:

let's go west!

a sad song with a upbeat tune and happy video, packed together for a good cause to revive a tourist attraction that was affected by an oil spill a year ago:

there's nowhere safe on earth

today, i just had another unpleasant encounter to add on to my list of freaky incidents with despicable men.

details will not be provided as i have no wish to re-enact the traumatic experience in my mental theatrette.

i only pray that God will continue to keep me safe, and keep me sane.

this is l-o-v to the e

this mv makes so much sense that i had to feature it - epik high's one minute one second:



hope you can appreciate the meaning behind the video.

and anyway, no prizes for guessing what i have been hooked on recently.