the post-exams period had been peaceful and rejuvenating.
having spent the past two weeks sleeping, watching old tv dramas and stuffing myself silly, i think i've rested enough. the upcoming month will be exhilarating but exhausting, and i wonder if my friend was right about me never giving myself a break.
what's so desirable about a break? it extracts me from the system and engulfs me like a black hole. it throws me into an vast abyss that runs infinitely as i lose track of time, people and my self. i wake up, wash up, watch the same shows and wonder about the same questions all over again. and while im stuck in this cycle, snapping out of the trance can such a herculean task. bit by bit, i need to start looking at my calendar, my address book and my phone. and as i open my mouth, i feel that i'm speaking for the first time. words spill out in splatters, and start filling up the vacuity. the noise inside my head softens, the silence around me is broken.
the hardest part is getting out of laziness. i've become too accustomed to doing nothing but ruminate. that is why committing myself to six weeks of lessons during the three month break will do me more good than bad, and prevent my mind from getting too rusty and dusty.
cheers to school holidays. (:
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