when you pit against morality and your own conscience, you will give in as long as you are still sane and logical.
obligations are terrible. they dictate you like a puppet master, they tie you down to your family, your employer, your teachers, your school principal, your relatives, your friends, and even yourself.
last night, i asked if i could put a stop to all these. the reply was no, the show must go on.
so i went to bed as i should. and this morning, i woke up as a mannequin.
this mannequin is terrific. she helps me brush my teeth, wash my hair, change my clothes. she helps me to reply messages, return calls and attend meetings. she wears a smile bigger than i do, laugh louder than i can, and grin wider than my mouth can stretch. she is automatic, she does not require batteries. all i need to do is to switch her on, put her on auto-pilot, and she will run the show for me. she will help me to meet my expectations and fulfill my obligations. she helps me to stay in touch with reality. she helps me to walk the path i have no desire to walk. she helps me to live my life.
maybe this is it. this is the answer. this is the answer, the solution i have been looking for.
