i don't know when i started becoming so obnoxious.
as dale carnegie has said - to have the best social life, you give people what they want, and you say what they want to hear. but i decided that i didn't want to be a slave to other people's opinions, so i traded good-naturedness, tolerance and diplomacy for honesty and straightforwardness, things that society don't value as much.
i got sick of being taken for granted, holding popular opinions and being part of an ordinary crowd. and because i hated mediocry, i wanted to stand out, but not stick out. i started to say what i think, not what people want to hear. but unfortunately, many people still prefer hearing half-truths - they have become the currency that people trade in. i started sharing my knowledge and being the antithesis of other people's opinions, in hope of spurring a more vibrant debate, but it was not in my intention to appear haughty.
but it seems that my plan to rediscover myself and take on a new identity has fallen flat. i thought i would be happier this way, but apparently not. because happiness does not only come from within, it comes from people around you too. so now i will shed my new cast, and revert back to the i-will-say-yes-to-everything-you-say girl.
