i wish i could stop having nightmares about filthy, wet toilets with narrow cubicles, dysfunction flushes and dim lights.

and the scariest part is when i start spotting one of these toilets in real life. its almost as good bad as seeing a ghost crawling out of a television set.

i sent my misses to the wind,
and asked the wind to carry them to you.

so whenever you feel the kiss of a gentle breeze,
thats when i miss you.

the fastest way to make everyone get out of your sight, is to close your eyes.
and the quickest way to shut everyone else up, is to start screaming at the top of your voice, like a mad woman.

sometimes you have to act like youre crazy to stay sane.

spent a quiet sunday trying to cram one textbook of information inside my puny brain. then a pleasant stranger came along, and made me pause to smile for a while.

sometimes, you just make somebody's day without knowing. (:

it takes more than one year to grow a tree thats tall and strong enough to shelter two persons.

hope im not too late to say happy birthday!

love,
to my bestie! ((:

we are all greedy, only in different ways.

some people are greedy for fame, others for popularity - they want everybody to know them, to like them, to shower them with attention and treat them like gods/goddesses. some people are greedy for wealth and material possessions - it is not enough to be a millionaire, to own a big house, and a fanciful car. they want to be a billionaire with a whole estate to their name, and a family of rolls-royces in their garage. some people are greedy for power and control - the marketing executive aspires to be the marketing director, the manager aspires to be the general manager, and the vice president aspires to be the president. on the other hand, some people are greedy for good grades and academic achievements - a typical overachiever who aces a test, would never look at the ninety marks he got, but rather at the ten marks that he knew he shouldnt had lost. many people are greedy for time - they complain that they dont have time for anything, and push the blame to everything but their poor time management. while, there are also some who are greedy for other people's time - they become so possessive that being together six days a week is not enough, they want all 168 hours from their spouse/lover. not to forget, some people are greedy for love - they either two-time people, or they end up leaving all the suitors hanging because they dont want to choose and they want all of the love and attention that they can get. of cos, there are always kids who are greedy for toys, women who are greedy for shoes and bags, and men who are greedy for more women.

the list is non-exhaustive, but the greediest of all, are those who are the most self-centered, because nobody else exists in their world, and so they just want the world for themselves.

what is your kind of greed? (:

insects seem to have a great affinity with me.

no, seriously. when i was a toddler, a moth once landed on my lips and i was so scared that my lips would rot that i ended up washing my mouth with soap for ten minutes. then in primary school, a cockroach once crawled on me when i was having silent reading (which was part of the curriculum) in the school hall. if thats not enough, a grasshopper jumped on me once in secondary school, when i was standing among hundreds of people. and guess what, i couldnt be luckier when another grasshopper hopped on me again this year. oh, not to forget, in secondary two, a huge unidentifiable flying insect parked on my neck and i screamed so loudly that even the teachers at the staff room heard me cos it was like six-ish in the morning.

of cos, that is not all - my friend spotted a lizard on my shoulder a couple of months back (yes, i know lizard is not an insect! and i have no idea how it got there!) a ladybird refused to budge from my leg today despite my futile attempts to flick it off, and now i have a family of ants hosted inside the CD-R drive of my laptop, much to my disgust. these are just highlights and rest assure that i would have more to share in the future. (:

if i'd liked them better, i think i would make a great entomologist.

tips for avoiding outright rejection -

#1. when you ask people for a favour, do what is convenient for the person, not what is convenient for yourself.

#2. dont ever assume that people are obliged to help you.

#3. and dont make stupid comments - being silly is funny and adorable, but being incredulously stupid isnt.

many growls in a night! ):

i have a terrible short-term memory.

i practically forget everything, including the fact that ive already brushed my teeth twice tonight. (i forgot that i had forgotten once previously) and it doesnt help that i love to multi-task and my mind has a tendency to think sofastsometimesthaticantkeepup, so i can get started on so many tasks simultaneously, and end up completing them in a random haphazard manner. see, i just got so carried away that ive forgotten what was the original purpose of my post.

i have a terrible short-term memory.

im close to three months away from the end of my adolescence.

i wished i had played more sports, gone on more excursions and field trips, picked up more languages, put on more sunblock to prevent my skin from aging, joined some idol/superstar contest before people laugh at me for being overage, lost more weight, squeezed less pimples, smiled more to prevent my cheeks from sagging, committed some petty crime when i was still a minor, sat on more roller coasters and viking ships, and watched more spongebob squarepants.

its sad that we only start to appreciate our youth when we are old.

the importance of dating

your entries.
(yes, at last!)

i stood in front of you for a while,

before moving away to take a seat, because i didnt realise that you were sitting behind me.

if things had ended there, i would be ignorant and the day would have went by as usual. but you caught my eye when you were getting up, and i knew that it was too late for me to do or say anything. you alighted, the door closed, and the train began to move.

overwhelmed with a sense of helplessness and resignation at fate's cruel joke, all i could do was to catch a glimpse of you through the window, as the train sped swiftly into the darkness of the tunnel.

welcome back, love -
you have been muchly missed. ((:

its appalling how thick some people can be, and how these people just keep coming. and lesson of the day - never count your chickens before they hatch, and never count on anyone to save you.

wearing a life jacket, is always better than having a lifeguard.

annoying things that some people do:

• approaching innocent people who are studying in the library, to ask them to do a twenty-minute long survey with pages and pages of open-ended questions.
• messaging an acquaintance on msn, whose nick is "ESSAYING, DO NOT DISTURB", and bombarding him/her with inconsequential statements.
• standing at the macdonalds counter for five minutes to check through their orders, and asking the cashier for extra chilli sauce, spoons, fork, serviettes, plastic bag (each item at a time), delaying the whole queue behind them.

for the first time in eight years, school ceased to be a second home for me.
it is just a school now.