I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you simply, without problems or pride:
I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving

but this, in which there is no I or you,
so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand,
so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close.

from Sonnet XVII by Pablo Neruda

this verse was read by Patch Adams to Carin at her funeral, after she was shockingly murdered by a psychologically disturbed patient in the movie. as he knelt before her coffin, took out the crumbled piece of paper from his pocket, and recited the last two stanzas of the love sonnet in his shaky, guilt-stricken voice, the scene was so, so heart-breaking.

after spending my lunch hours (and a week of tuition earnings) on a session of retail therapy, the amelioration was shortlived, as it was my bank account's turn to hit the blues.

and now, the doldrums have sparked off a craving for food therapy instead, and here is a list of my favourite delights that i reckon would perk up my day:

1. fish fillet baked rice from Crystal Jade HK Cafe
2. chicken rice from Purvis Street
3. caesar salad from New York New York
4. red bean ice & thick toast from Kim Gary
5. black sesame & almond paste from Liang Seah Street
6. bee hoon soup from st nick's orange bowl!

now that the list is up, all i need to do is to find time and company! :S

do you have what i need?
can i buy some time from you?









i just feel incredibly burnt out. there is too much emotional baggage, and i refuse to regress or relapse.

i received a very nice surprise from a group of people whom i'd been through thick and thin with during early adolescence, and whom i've known for almost a decade! :D

photos will be up as soon as i get them! (:

i'm terribly afraid of going to bed nowadays,

because that would mean hours of tossing in bed before my brain decides to shut down, and waking up to a cold, miserable 6 a.m. - which is way too early for my day to begin, and struggling to go back to sleep again.

this translates to an agonising spell of insomnia for me. and i cannot find a cure because i know not its roots.

its really not about what i am, or what you are, but how you make me feel.

even a small message may seem insignificant to you, and may just take up one minute of your time, but it means much more than that to me. because you've made me feel important enough to be remembered.

and that's really what's utmost important to me.

"but ma'am, there are no guarantees in life."

was what i wanted to say. it is just a matter of probability and chances, and its sad how our life can be determined by numbers sometimes.

a good way to start the day is to be awoken by a loud, persistent knocking on your door that forces you to grudgingly drag yourself out of the bed, only to find a postman with a brown box at your doorstep!



birthday delights from my brother! :D

lesson of the day - even in 'difficult' times, life may just bring us many pleasant surprises. (:

happy happy birthday!! :D

ps: i shant divulge your age here! (;

im not sure if this is going to help, but please dont get me anything expensive that i might not like, and dont buy for the sake of buying.

sincerity will be your best present to me, and it will be the gift that touches me most.

for now, im glad that there is something to smile about for at least a while.

charm and humour sure can cook up some magic against a melancholic backdrop. (:

a friend told me - "accept disappointment but never lose hope."

when we lose hope, we lose our desire to move forward. so i hope that you too, would never lose your sense of hope no matter how painful the letdown.

天下无不散的宴席。



but i hope that our graduation will only be the beginning of another new chapter together.

xin nian kuai le. (:

sometimes, the worst things that could happen, are not those that happen to ourselves, but to our closest kins and friends. because that is when we feel most helpless.

to you, her and him:

i hope you never lose your sense of wonder
you get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger
may you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
i hope you still feel small when you stand by the ocean
whenever one door closes, i hope one more opens
promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

i hope you dance, i hope you dance

i hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
never settle for the path of least resistance
living might mean taking chances but they're worth taking
loving might be a mistake but it's worth making
don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter
when you come close to selling out, reconsider
give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance

-- I hope you dance | lee ann womack

all i wish for, this lunar new year, is for all of us to be in good health.

because with health, comes everything else.

but if we cant have be in perfectly good health, then we must not forget that we still have many things else that are worth doing, treasuring and living for. like what they've always told me, there is life outside, and after. (:

I smiled at her. "You know kid, I love you. Don't ever forget that. If the time ever comes that you're alone or scared or anything else bad ever happens. don't forget that I love you. Because I do. That's really all one person can do for another."

Her brow wrinkled. She did not understand what I was saying. I suppose I knew she wouldn't because she was so young. But I had to say it. I had to know, for my own peace of mind that I had told her I had done my best.

-- One Child by Torey Hayden.

some people live like they'll never die,
and die like they've never lived.

dont leave any room for regrets, my friend. (: