the traffic was crawling, inch by inch.

the commuters stood stiff as a board, their shoulders pressed against each other in discomfort. some of them were oblivious to the surroundings, as they clung tightly to the sheets of paper in their hands and stared intently at the pages of words, muttering unintelligibly under their breath. a few of them were starting to worry, as they kept lifting their hands to glance at their watch; while some others were showing signs of exasperation, as they typed furiously on the keypad of their phones.

outside the bus, the other drivers were getting impatient too. a man in a suit had loosened his tie and unbuttoned his collar; a lady was sitting beside him, with her arms crossed and lips sealed together. he opened his mouth to speak, she shot him a look of contempt, he reacted with dismay. at the right lane, a young chap was resting his arm on the window ledge, with his left hand tapping incessantly on the wheel, and his right hand holding a cigarette between his fingers. as he exhaled, the trail of smoke swirled and dispersed, scattering the cloud of tension into the calm morning air. when he finished his last puff, he tossed the stub away, closed the window and turned just in time to catch me staring.

i hurriedly looked away in awkwardness. i needed to find another distraction to get a hold of myself.

the time was 8.45 am - it was fifteen minutes to the start of my examination.

the three things im going to do after exams: (yes, i've become incredibly self-indulgent recently, and i'm going to pretend like you're interested in what i do/like/eat. hahh! )

• go drama binge-ing on youtube & crunchyroll and watch all my favourite shows again! :D
• pick up a bit of conversational bahasa melayu for three weeks in malaysia (this is taking for granted that i AM going away for special semester)
  
• start brainstorming for my thesis! (you guessed it, geek is my middle name. 8-) )
  

twelve days of exams - i'm going to count down now. (:

if i were to have to plot my life onto a piechart, this is how it should look like:



watching mtvs on youtube is nicotine-free but awfully addictive; caffeine-free but it keeps me awake all night; and calorie-free but very fattening (cos i end up being a couch potato for hours). fight the temptation!

i absolutely adore the popcorn throwing part! :D

if i told you a secret, you won't tell a soul
will you hold it and keep it alive?

-- Love will come through | Travis

comfort food series is back by (not-so) popular demand!



"Baby Star" is a crispy, light and highly addictive noodle snack! and the best thing about it is that it only costs you 90 cents and 150 calories, which makes it suitable and relatively healthy to munch on especially during the exam period. however, beware of the chicken flavour (!) which is apparently not as nice - so like the 'nong shim' incident, make sure you get the spicy flavour! ;)

"so don't go away, say what you say
but say that you'll stay, forever and a day
in the time of my life, cos i need more time
yes I need more time, just to make things right"

-- Don't Go Away | Oasis

the photo was taken during the last class of my counselling module, and i felt it ended on a rather sad note because it marked the end of good old schooling days for some of my counterparts who are graduating; and it was the last lecture in the university for the professor as well because he's moving on to another place.

i don't like how some things end at the moment when they've just barely started, and i wish that people never have to say goodbye. but i guess life is like a train that brings us to different places to meet different people. sometimes the train moves slowly, so we get to buy more time at a place with some people. but sometimes, the train leaves before we can prepare ourselves, so we end up not getting a fair share of time with the people we meet. and sometimes, we are lucky and we get to bring our friends on board so they can accompany us along the way. but there are also times when we have to go through the journey alone, because we each have our own destination to go and we must embark on our separate ways. sometimes, it can get pretty dark and scary when the train is going through a tunnel, but if we persevere long enough, we will eventually see the light at the end of the tunnel and to breathe the fresh air again.

and when you look out of the window of the train, there will always be things in the far distance that are beyond your imagination, beyond your capacity to comprehend, and beyond your reach.

and you can only watch as it diminishes out of sight.

i find it so hard to live with imperfection these days.

i have so many plans, but no direction.

due to the severe exam blues, i decide to have a comfort food series to cheer myself up.



the star of the day is cadbury black forest family bar! the jellies are chewy, the cookies are crunchy and most importantly, it is big enough to feed my insatiable appetite! :D

nong shim instant noodles - the comfort food that i cannot do without.

but unfortunately, all the flavors' packaging look so similarly that i always grab the wrong flavor. ): so i strongly urge everyone to look carefully before you buy! remember - scrutinise the wrapper for the words "spicy mushroom" before making the purchase, or you may end up feeling as cheated as i was!

" Whenever you feel like criticising anyone," he told me, " just remember that all the people in this world haven't had the advantages that you've had."

-- The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzergerald

i have been chanting it in my head like a sacred doctrine.

time is relative, just like many other things.

the last few hours crawled by; i wasted it staring into space, hopping around the blogs of strangers, trying to type something constructive here, struggling to read my lecture notes, attempting to memorise the lyrics of a song, combing my hair, thinking about some people, organising my pencil case and throwing away scraps of paper with random scribblings, blowing the dust off my laptop monitor, deleting messages in my phone, feeling hungry but resisting the urge to eat, and waiting for the tiredness to set in.

now that my head feels heavy, its time to capitalise on it; good morning and night.

“虽然我闭着眼睛，也看不见自己，但是我却可以看见你。”

set in a summer of a high school, blue gate crossing is a quirky yet refreshing film that explores a mature theme with an innocent touch, as a teenage crush unfolds into a bizarre love triangle which throws the female protagonist into an emotional state of chaos. the intense moments in the show were carefully interspersed with light-hearted scenes, as the young cast leads us through their coming-of-age in a waltz that alternate between intimacy and distance. this film may not be perfect, but it's certainly a rare gem, especially in the light of the simplicity of the movie.

well, to say more is to spoil the show, so catch it if you have the time. (:

i love the part when he plays the piano with his back to it. (:

the end of my attachment has brought me much relief, and is expected to free up my schedule more, which i badly need for the many deadlines ahead. i need to work really hard in the next four weeks - because i have raised my expectations for myself, because time moves faster when you're busy, and because i know that at the end of the road,

a lovely summer awaits me. (: